I'm just a girl, Take a good look at me.

As I leave will you be someone to say goodbye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door and you can't stop me.


i will always remember the day i became a Christian, and i will always remember the day i took the cross off my coat and lost my religion. i will always remember sitting on the floor in my bedroom as a child hearing voices telling me i was stupid and ugly and worthless and being too scared to tell anyone. i will always remember playing with my barbies and wishing my brother liked action man so barbie could have a date. i remember my older cousins teaching me how to climb on to the top bunk using the bedside table instead of the ladders. i will always remember making a banner out of toilet roll when i found out we were moving house and protesting that i would never move.
i remember moving.

the day my first pet dog died and my dad wouldn't let me go to the vets with him will always be with me. i will always remember him coming home and seeing him cry for the first and only time. i will always remember how we always had a wooden box of onions off my grandad in our garage. i will always remember how we never ate them.

i will always remember the safety i found in the garage and how i would escape to there as a child and sing whenever i felt upset. i will always remember losing my safe place when we moved house.

i will always remember dropping the rabbit food and the jar smashing, leaving glass all over the floor by her hutch. i will always remember the fox in the garden.

i will always remember my first sleepover.

i will always remember meeting my best friend for the first time and how her pen scared me because it made a noise. i will always remember the lunch times in the cooking room and the phone in the oven.

i will always remember slapping Daniel Gibbs at the year six disco because he said my hair looked nasty after i had spent hours curling it. i will always remember asking my teacher about liquid eyeliner and making my mom take me shopping for some the next day.

i will always remember the first boy i had a proper crush on and how i would spend hours texting him after school. i will always remember turning him down when he asked me out because i was scared what my mom would say. i will always remember sitting in my room crying because i was ugly. i will always remember my eating diary i kept and how i starved myself for days, trying to lose weight.

i will always remember how excited i got over my first period, and i will always remember how i soon got bored of them!

the day i ran away from home after an argument with my mom. the day i threw all my school books in the bin.

i will always remember sitting on the stairs as a child at night listening to my parents shouting and never understanding why. i will always remember staying up all night and watching Didney films with my dad whenever i was ill. i will always remember dad reading the Naughty Amelia Jane books to me and my brother and putting on all the voices. i will always remember the smell of my childhood books.

i will always remember the first time i heard Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap and how it took my breath away.

i will always remember my first kiss and how his stubble made my chin dry.

i will always remember the one and only time i smoked weed and how i regretted it afterwards. i will always remember getting drunk with Hannah after getting our gcse results and being sick.

meeting the tipton lads!

i will always remember the excited nervousness the first time i told someone i loved them and had them say it back. i will always remember the first time i had sex and the silly comment i made. i will always remember sitting outside my house until 7am just talking and writing on the car windows and each others hands. i will always remember vagna.

afro duck and narf will always make me smile.

i will always remember my first day of uni and how nervous i was. i will always remember how those nerves have never really left me.

i will always remember the night i spent attacking the security guy with the su stamp and him asking for my number. i will always remember how on our first date we spent 5 hours in the pub just talking. i will always remember the silly names i made for different people, hobnob, smoochies, litter boy..

i will always remember the sleepovers in the kitchen and the night we all drank vodka at Kate's. i will always remember being locked in the bathroom with Kate while she had a poo and shouting out the window with Holly for help. i will always remember the photos in the garden and the morning drives to uni with the music up full.

i will always remember the last day of the first year with the BBQ out the back and how i cried the entire drive home. i will always remember how i cried when i heard A Thousand Miles as the last track of the CD Jake made me and i will always remember jumping up and down and screaming with Becca and Maria when i found out i had got in to nyt.

i will always remember my amazing two weeks in London and singing on the tube with random people. i will always remember how my tummy flipped the first time i went to the tube station when the gush of wind blew in my face and took me by surprise.

i will always remember making up songs with Adele on holiday and my incredible sunstroke. i will always remember my first holiday romance and how i cried the day he went home. i will always wonder how we fit five people, two dogs and all the camping things in a ford escort!

i will always remember sitting with Mabel in the vets waiting room and how she died in my arms. it will always hurt that she wasn't aloud any privacy because it was ten minutes before opening and how she had to suffer in front of a full waiting room of people. i will always remember my rabbit Holly dying as i stroked her head. i will always believe she waited until i was there because she knew i needed to say goodbye.

i will always remember crying while writing that last sentence.

i will always remember the sleep overs at Emily's house and Thursday grooves with Salv and Carl.

i will always remember my first job and AJ putting a whole boiled egg in his mouth the first time i met him. i will always remember the night i accidentally asked customers to 'go away' over the tanoy at closing and i will always remember the look my manager gave me.

i will always remember the first time i had my heart truly broken and i will always remember the day i finally knew i was glued back together.

i will always remember the feeling i got the first time i waltzed to Come Away With Me by Nora Jones and how i ran off crying when my soldier came back from war. i will always remember being lonely girl and performing in merry hill shopping centre. i will always remember slipping on confetti and pulling the tendons in my leg and limping for about 3 months afterwards!

i will always remember the first time i cut myself and the night i sat up listening to Hold On on repeat. i will always remember watching the scars heal and knowing i would never let a guy make me do that to myself ever again.

i will always remember the first time i tried a cigarette. i will always remember the cough i then had for weeks after!

i will always remember moving into the bungabow. i will always remember my first food shop. i will always remember the smell my room had when i first moved in.

listening to Gene in a Bottle will always bring back the smell of my bedroom at Talbot Road when i first moved in there and i will always remember the exact layout of my navy blue room at that time.

i will always remember the first time i listened to Taylor Swifts album and how it instantly made me feel safe.

there are many more things i will remember, too many to list in one go. these are just a few of the moments in my life that have shaped me, that have stuck with me and that always will. and for everyone i am grateful <3