Eyes open wide

The clouds danced on the river as I walked among the stars

I wish I could say it's you I'm crying over. But it's not. And for that I am sorry.

I'm sorry for a lot of things recently. I'm sorry that I care for someone who doesn't care back, I'm sorry I don't care enough for the person who probably cares about me more than anyone else, I'm sorry if it ever feels like I've led you on, that was never my intention, I'm sorry that I do silly drunken things with people who I know I shouldn't and I'm sorry that even though I am very aware of how big a mistake it is I do it anyway.

I go in with my eyes open wide, fully aware of the consequences that could arouse because of my actions and I do it anyway. Maybe my eyes are open blind or maybe I'm just trying to find some way to feel that rush again.